Rest in Paradise

There are no words to describe how I'm feeling at this very moment. The last 24 hours all I've wanted to do was crawl back into bed & pull the blanket over my head. But in reality having a child to take care of, that's not possible.

Yesterday, October 24, 2011 at 4:50am.. My grandfather, or as we all liked to call him in Chinese.. KongKong.. Passed away at the age of 92.

..... =*(**

I know he's in a better place. Reunited with Lola, my grandmother, who passed away November 2nd nearly two years ago. I guess she was tired of waiting & he couldn't wait to see her.

I wish I was there so he didn't have to be alone. I wish I was at least in the county. Soon as I heard the news my son & I drove an hour & a half just to say "good bye". It was the longest drive ever.. Or so I thought until it was time to drive home. That took twice as long or so it felt.

The whole family knew this time would be different. I think deep down we all knew the day was drawing near. Usually, KongKong would pull through coz he's so stubborn.. Nothing can get him down. We all knew.. It was only a matter of time.. & his will to keep fighting.

I will miss you! So much!

CHUA HO
June 12, 1919 to October 24, 2011

Rest in Paradise

Blogger App!

Downloaded this Blogger application on my iPhone a few days ago. Now I can blog from just about anywhere.. the park, beach, toilet.. just a few examples!

Yea, it's nearly 6:00am.. woke up an hour ago. Baby Ares has a cold so sleeping is rough. Been this way the last couple of nights. Tomorrow.. (later that is) we're getting a vaporizer for the little one. Should've bought one months ago. A definite must now since we live in such a dry environment. Oh poor munchkin... =(

Not sure exactly how long I'm going to last today. My patience will definitely more than likely be non-existent.. a nap is a definite must today! Went to bed at 2:00am only 'cause I've got so much going on in my head. =/ The worst thing ever is to have so much on ones mind right before bed..

Update on Kong-Kong

Not responding treatment.
He can open his eyes but that's it.
Unable to eat.

The doctor said it's only a matter of time.

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I feel like my world is turned upside down right now. I'm trying my hardest to focus on being a great mommy to Ares, but my mind keeps spacing. I keep choking back tears. It's as if someone's taken the floor from under me & I'm just falling. Falling. & falling.

October Never Fails

In the last couple of years I've learned to dislike, even hate the month of October. It's brought nothing but heartache to our family.. Except maybe for one thing. My cousin did conceive my beautiful god daughter Kianna Novelie two years ago.

Overall I give October a thumbs down.

Two years go, October of 2009, our Lola (grandma) suffered a stroke leaving her brain dead & passed away November 3, one day shy of her 82nd birthday.

Last year, October of 2010, my dad got into a horrible car accident while at work. He was airlifted from the accident site in Carmel to Regional Medical Center in San Jose. He's doing fine by the way.

This year, October of 2011, does not surprise me. "Kong-Kong" (grandpa in Chinese) was admitted to the Monterey Community Hospital nearly a week ago. They found that he's got some kind of blood clot & bacteria, but doctors are unable to figure out what's causing the bacteria & where the blood clot has formed. My son & I spent the whole morning & afternoon sitting by his side yesterday. Today, I found out he's more than likely not going to make it. He's not responding to treatment & currently not responding to anyone.

One Too Many

Since my little munchkin's been born he has only had 2 fevers, one at birth & the last couple days. They're very mild so nothing to 'really' worry about. But bing a first time mom it most definitely is something to worry about. Thankfully my god-mother/aunt is an RN here in the states & a licensed MD in the Philippines. Lucky for me she's just one phone call or text away!

Ares hasn't been fussy at all the last couple of days but it seems like, with most children, the fever spikes at night. Oh yes! Another wonderful reason to be up in the wee hours of the morning. I repeat he isn't fussy. But awake! Wide awake! He's currently kicking me to get my attention & yes, he's got it even though I'm on here blogging about my first personal run-in with a sickly infant.

Well.. I think it's time to try & put this little party boy to bed, again! Hopefully, it works this time & he stays asleep. Ten minutes ago I was given the thumbs up to give him some Infant Acetaminophen 0.4ml (for future reference). Although he may or may not really need it for a mother's peace of mind.. Oh it helps.

Okay! Time to put Mr. Cool-Guy & Cookie Monster to sleep.. Can't forget Scout!

Aaaaaaaand.. Good night!

Re-Learning,..

Ever sign up for some new website? Only to find yourself obsessed with it for a few days or a week & then forgetting about it? One day you find a friend talking about it or posting a link to their own blog.. & a light bulb in your brain fliCKS (oops.. my son thought he'd press the CAPSLOCK button for fun. -__-) on & you remember you have that website. After resetting your password you finally log on after being missing for a year & find yourself having to re-learn everything. Yea, that's what I'm doing right this moment. Well, other than blogging about it. Time to update everything on here & start blogging again.


My son says "HI!" =)