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Exercise to be fit, not skinny. Eat to nourish your body. And always ignore the haters, doubters, & unhealthy examples that were once feeding you. You are worth more than you realize.

Sunday, February 12, 2012

Back pain. Knee pain. I'm getting old! Popcorn. Need to get my lab work done tomorrow. As much as I like getting my blood drawn, since our body gets to produce more (out with the old in with thee new), I hate needles. "Need-less" to say I have to get this done ASAP!

Had an appt on Thursday.. Doctor found something she's afraid might be "something serious" so now I have to get seen & tested by another doctor to make sure it's nothing "serious". Let's just say I've had this "something" for several years now & I hope to god it hasn't grown! I wasn't worried before, but now.. Now I am a bit concerned. Oh duck! =\ When it was first examined by a doctor several years ago he said it wasn't anything to really be concerned about, but wtf does that mean? Nothing to really be concerned about? So there's a chance i should be concerned. Uhh.. Anywho.. We didn't have it surgically removed only because he was afraid it would spread. Oh great! =[

Friday, February 10, 2012

Secrets

I hate secrets. Only because I'm one of those people who want to tell everyone everything if I think it's important. This secret has been eating me up.. I've known since December & it's driving me nuts that I just can't tell everyone!

But the fact that it's been so long & I've revealed this secret makes me very proud of myself. I still wish I could just say it & get on with MY life.

Thursday, February 9, 2012

First lub-dub

As the doctor walked out the room I was relieved to hear her say "everything looks fine". So I was surprised to have her come back in 5 minutes later with a fetal Doppler & said she nearly forgot that we needed to here the baby for the first time.

I wasn't sure how I would react or I'd I even wanted to listen. I wasn't sure because my heart hadn't completely accepted the fact that I was going to be a mommy.

As she moved the Doppler all around my pregnant bump.. I began to worry. Worried that there may be something wrong, again. I thought about the last pregnancy I had. It was heartbreaking to see my 6 week old fetus on the sonography monitor.. Lifeless. I cried.

It took a few minutes before she could get the Doppler on the right spot. And when she did.. That first "lub-dub-lub-dub" brought a smile to my face.