Yesterday, my cousin who I grew up with & one of the few that are here in the states asked me to be her "Matron of Honor". I accepted! I'm excited! I'm not only a god mother to her first & only daughter but I get to experience this as well. I'm so happy & beyond excited for her. If ever I got married she would be my choice as my maid of honor because no one knows me better than myself & god than my cousin!
Wedding date is set: Friday October 12 2011 so it will be a challenge planning all this in 9 months as well as my sons baptism & birthday. I'm going o have my hands full!
- ViennaMarie
- Exercise to be fit, not skinny. Eat to nourish your body. And always ignore the haters, doubters, & unhealthy examples that were once feeding you. You are worth more than you realize.
Monday, January 23, 2012
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
Birth Story
I've read a lot of posts by women sharing their birth story. And I've yet to share mine. At the moment my son is busy crawling all over the house & standing by the glass door looking out the front yard.. I'm sure I can spare just a few minutes writing this. Here goes..
My son, Mark Ares, wasn't due until May 7th 2011 because that's when I was suppose to be 40 weeks into my pregnancy. So I was surprised when I had found out that I went into labor at 38 weeks. It was a Wednesday in mid April, I went to my 'last' prenatal appointment. I had no idea it would've been the last time I'd be walking into that clinic pregnant. My appointment was different than the past ones I've had.. normally I'd pee in a cup, she'd measure my tummy, & we'd talk. I was surprised to have been asked to undress from the bottom down. She wanted to check my cervix to see if I was dilating.. I was a little surprised since well I was only 37.5 weeks along. What surprised me the most was when she said I was already dilated by 1cm. While measuring my oh so growing pregnant belly she asked if I was having any sort of contractions. I explained to her that since it was my first pregnancy I wasn't sure what a contraction was. Right when I finished my sentence she replied, "there! you just had one." Of course I felt some tightening in my abdomen which I thought was normal since I was having them all week long! Who knew! I obviously didn't! She then asked me a few more questions & made sure I understood what a mucus plug was. Eww! Sounds gross I know.. it kind of is if you've ever seen it! LOL! Before I left I said told the OB I'd see her next week at my 39 week check up. Her reply of "maybe sooner!" made me wonder if I was going to be giving birth within the next week.
During the second half of my pregnancy I was babysitting my baby sitter who was born August of 2010 as well as playing soccer mom to my two other younger siblings. I was also attending college full time Monday thru Thursdays.. so it was a lot of driving back & forth. Luckily I was on Spring Break! So I spent the weeks staying down in Monterey & would drive back home come the weekend. Home being Milpitas, which is a little over an hour north.
Friday April 22, 2011 started off as a pretty normal day for my schedule. Took the kiddies to school. Watched my sister & went to the park. Picked up the kids from school. Around 5pm I decided it was time to drive home soon as I finished getting my stuff together. I had a feeling that since I didn't text Mark (the boyfriend) he'd assume I wasn't coming home & would be out with his friends getting drunk. Guess what.. I was right. I got home & he wasn't there. So I was a little upset that I had pack everything in the car & now unpack everything & lug it into the house in my condition. An hour passed since getting home & I did the usual.. pee'd.. A LOT! I was actually on the phone with my god mother who is an RN for the Monterey County & was asking her what contractions would feel like & how fart a part they were suppose to be & blah blah blah.. After taking a wee wee I continued my conversation with my aunt who then proceeded to ask me to lean back & feel my tummy so I can get an understanding of what contractions felt like. Soon as I leaned back by only an inch I felt a "pop". I started to trickle into my liner so I ran.. more wobbled to the bathroom & sat on the toilet for a while! I thought to myself, "I just peed a few minutes ago.. how can so much pee be coming out now & why can't I stop it!" So I told my aunt, "I think my water broke." She asked why I thought that.. I replied, "well either that or I have an uncontrollable bladder cause I can't stop peeing!" She told me to make my way to the hospital ASAP & to get Mark's ass home!
I texted Mark & told him it was time. You want to know what he said? "Are you serious?" Uhh.. yes! Who would kid about something like that, seriously! 20 minutes later he comes barging into the room in-bloody-toxicated with a bunch of his intoxicated friends! Yea. I was furious! I wanted to drive down by myself instead they had me get into the front seat of his friends van which seats 7-8 people? Let me just say this.. it was packed. It was the most obnoxious drive ever! Before we even made our way down to the Hospital, I delivered at Community Hospital in Monterey (yea an hour drive) his friends said they didn't want to go & asked to be dropped off. So we had to drop most of the guys off in downtown San Jose but before we left Mark had the nerve to give everyone hugs & blah blah blah.. GET IN THE FOOKING CAR! It was the longest hour drive of my life. I nearly ripped off the seat belt I was in so much pain. I texted my mom & told her I was on my way to CHOMP. My birth plan was during labor to have NO ONE there only because it was my first time & I hate noise! It's hard to keep calm when other people are loud & panicking around you! Mark knew what I wanted.. but when we got to the hospital who was there, his mother. I was a little upset since I was in no mood to have a video camera in my face. All I wanted was to lay down or walk or stand up or SOMETHING! Anything than be annoyed by anyone!
This part I'm sure I can skip.. the getting dressed into the ugly hospital gown. It was midnight by the time I was admitted. I wasn't offered pain killers until around 4-5am which was just fioricet. It made me drowsy but the pain killer part didn't last long. Contractions are horrible! Since Mark & his mom were sleeping in my room I couldn't scream, cry, or felt like bothering anyone. It was horrible. I had to go to the bathroom a few times or at least felt like I had to! You know.. poo! But nothing came out & I didn't want to push since I was afraid I'd give birth in the toilet. LOL! Yea, I have a crazy imagination. When I arrived they checked my cervix & I was already at 3cm. Come 5am I was at 4cm & was offered epidural.. let me tell you this.. I didn't hesitate to accept! I wanted to be as comfortable as I possibly could. Getting an epidural is one of the most uncomfortable things about being in labor. The way the needle penetrates your skin & inbetween your spinal column.. whoa! ugh! I shudder to think about it! A few hours had gone by & I was at 6cm & I stayed this way for half the day until they gave me pitocin.Half way into the day (the 23rd) nurses came rushing into the room. My son wasn't getting enough oxygen, so they had me switch positions. And when that didn't work they had to flush fluids back into my uterus to keep the baby from pressing down on his cord. I was in panic mode! Labor wasn't very kind to me. I ended up with a 100+ fever & was put on oxygen. The nurses asked me to sleep but who could sleep when people kept walking in & out & asking if I was okay! My fever wouldn't go down so I was put on antibiotics. =(
Finally, evening came.. 8pm the nurse checked I was at 8cm.. improvement! 8:30pm I turned to Mark who was standing over the bed watching the nurse check the fetal monitor. I told him, "I think I have to poo." He turned to the nurse & told her exactly what I said, "it's time!" 15+ of my visitors were asked to leave the room, only Mark, my mom, & by request (not even she just decided she'd stay) Mark's mom. Mark of course had front row seat right next to the OB, my mom behind the OB at a distance with the video camera pointed at my AREA.. & Mark's mom off to the side where she couldn't see my AREA but was able to film the birth from a different angle. It took me 2 hours of pushing & pushing & pushing.. it was the biggest shit I ever took in my life. And finally.. 2 hours later.. Mark Ares was born. 6lbs 14oz 19" Perfect. He was placed on my tummy after birth for a minute & was immediately rushed to the Neonatal ICU. =( He also had a fever at birth & was put on antibiotics. After delivering, the next day I was discharged but my son had to stay for another 3 days to continue his treatment & with a low blood cell count he was placed under photo therapy. I stayed by his side. And didn't once leave the hospital. I couldn't bare it.
I know this wasn't much or that great of a story. But it was mine. And mine to share with you. My son is perfect.. not sure how many lbs or how tall he is but he's 8.5 months old, crawling, standing up & walking with the help of furniture that is. He's babbling a lot! He's said "mama" & wants no one else but me! =D Only downside of birth & having to be placed on antibiotics while in labor the antibiotics prevented me from producing certain bacteria in the body. So to this day since I'm still breastfeeding I have to take acidophilus otherwise Ares gets a yeast infection.Sounds gross but it's not that bad. It's just a diaper rash caused by his urine when I don't take my probiotic regularly.
That's my birth story. Share yours if you haven't. I'd love to read about it!
My son, Mark Ares, wasn't due until May 7th 2011 because that's when I was suppose to be 40 weeks into my pregnancy. So I was surprised when I had found out that I went into labor at 38 weeks. It was a Wednesday in mid April, I went to my 'last' prenatal appointment. I had no idea it would've been the last time I'd be walking into that clinic pregnant. My appointment was different than the past ones I've had.. normally I'd pee in a cup, she'd measure my tummy, & we'd talk. I was surprised to have been asked to undress from the bottom down. She wanted to check my cervix to see if I was dilating.. I was a little surprised since well I was only 37.5 weeks along. What surprised me the most was when she said I was already dilated by 1cm. While measuring my oh so growing pregnant belly she asked if I was having any sort of contractions. I explained to her that since it was my first pregnancy I wasn't sure what a contraction was. Right when I finished my sentence she replied, "there! you just had one." Of course I felt some tightening in my abdomen which I thought was normal since I was having them all week long! Who knew! I obviously didn't! She then asked me a few more questions & made sure I understood what a mucus plug was. Eww! Sounds gross I know.. it kind of is if you've ever seen it! LOL! Before I left I said told the OB I'd see her next week at my 39 week check up. Her reply of "maybe sooner!" made me wonder if I was going to be giving birth within the next week.
During the second half of my pregnancy I was babysitting my baby sitter who was born August of 2010 as well as playing soccer mom to my two other younger siblings. I was also attending college full time Monday thru Thursdays.. so it was a lot of driving back & forth. Luckily I was on Spring Break! So I spent the weeks staying down in Monterey & would drive back home come the weekend. Home being Milpitas, which is a little over an hour north.
Friday April 22, 2011 started off as a pretty normal day for my schedule. Took the kiddies to school. Watched my sister & went to the park. Picked up the kids from school. Around 5pm I decided it was time to drive home soon as I finished getting my stuff together. I had a feeling that since I didn't text Mark (the boyfriend) he'd assume I wasn't coming home & would be out with his friends getting drunk. Guess what.. I was right. I got home & he wasn't there. So I was a little upset that I had pack everything in the car & now unpack everything & lug it into the house in my condition. An hour passed since getting home & I did the usual.. pee'd.. A LOT! I was actually on the phone with my god mother who is an RN for the Monterey County & was asking her what contractions would feel like & how fart a part they were suppose to be & blah blah blah.. After taking a wee wee I continued my conversation with my aunt who then proceeded to ask me to lean back & feel my tummy so I can get an understanding of what contractions felt like. Soon as I leaned back by only an inch I felt a "pop". I started to trickle into my liner so I ran.. more wobbled to the bathroom & sat on the toilet for a while! I thought to myself, "I just peed a few minutes ago.. how can so much pee be coming out now & why can't I stop it!" So I told my aunt, "I think my water broke." She asked why I thought that.. I replied, "well either that or I have an uncontrollable bladder cause I can't stop peeing!" She told me to make my way to the hospital ASAP & to get Mark's ass home!
I texted Mark & told him it was time. You want to know what he said? "Are you serious?" Uhh.. yes! Who would kid about something like that, seriously! 20 minutes later he comes barging into the room in-bloody-toxicated with a bunch of his intoxicated friends! Yea. I was furious! I wanted to drive down by myself instead they had me get into the front seat of his friends van which seats 7-8 people? Let me just say this.. it was packed. It was the most obnoxious drive ever! Before we even made our way down to the Hospital, I delivered at Community Hospital in Monterey (yea an hour drive) his friends said they didn't want to go & asked to be dropped off. So we had to drop most of the guys off in downtown San Jose but before we left Mark had the nerve to give everyone hugs & blah blah blah.. GET IN THE FOOKING CAR! It was the longest hour drive of my life. I nearly ripped off the seat belt I was in so much pain. I texted my mom & told her I was on my way to CHOMP. My birth plan was during labor to have NO ONE there only because it was my first time & I hate noise! It's hard to keep calm when other people are loud & panicking around you! Mark knew what I wanted.. but when we got to the hospital who was there, his mother. I was a little upset since I was in no mood to have a video camera in my face. All I wanted was to lay down or walk or stand up or SOMETHING! Anything than be annoyed by anyone!
This part I'm sure I can skip.. the getting dressed into the ugly hospital gown. It was midnight by the time I was admitted. I wasn't offered pain killers until around 4-5am which was just fioricet. It made me drowsy but the pain killer part didn't last long. Contractions are horrible! Since Mark & his mom were sleeping in my room I couldn't scream, cry, or felt like bothering anyone. It was horrible. I had to go to the bathroom a few times or at least felt like I had to! You know.. poo! But nothing came out & I didn't want to push since I was afraid I'd give birth in the toilet. LOL! Yea, I have a crazy imagination. When I arrived they checked my cervix & I was already at 3cm. Come 5am I was at 4cm & was offered epidural.. let me tell you this.. I didn't hesitate to accept! I wanted to be as comfortable as I possibly could. Getting an epidural is one of the most uncomfortable things about being in labor. The way the needle penetrates your skin & inbetween your spinal column.. whoa! ugh! I shudder to think about it! A few hours had gone by & I was at 6cm & I stayed this way for half the day until they gave me pitocin.Half way into the day (the 23rd) nurses came rushing into the room. My son wasn't getting enough oxygen, so they had me switch positions. And when that didn't work they had to flush fluids back into my uterus to keep the baby from pressing down on his cord. I was in panic mode! Labor wasn't very kind to me. I ended up with a 100+ fever & was put on oxygen. The nurses asked me to sleep but who could sleep when people kept walking in & out & asking if I was okay! My fever wouldn't go down so I was put on antibiotics. =(
Finally, evening came.. 8pm the nurse checked I was at 8cm.. improvement! 8:30pm I turned to Mark who was standing over the bed watching the nurse check the fetal monitor. I told him, "I think I have to poo." He turned to the nurse & told her exactly what I said, "it's time!" 15+ of my visitors were asked to leave the room, only Mark, my mom, & by request (not even she just decided she'd stay) Mark's mom. Mark of course had front row seat right next to the OB, my mom behind the OB at a distance with the video camera pointed at my AREA.. & Mark's mom off to the side where she couldn't see my AREA but was able to film the birth from a different angle. It took me 2 hours of pushing & pushing & pushing.. it was the biggest shit I ever took in my life. And finally.. 2 hours later.. Mark Ares was born. 6lbs 14oz 19" Perfect. He was placed on my tummy after birth for a minute & was immediately rushed to the Neonatal ICU. =( He also had a fever at birth & was put on antibiotics. After delivering, the next day I was discharged but my son had to stay for another 3 days to continue his treatment & with a low blood cell count he was placed under photo therapy. I stayed by his side. And didn't once leave the hospital. I couldn't bare it.
I know this wasn't much or that great of a story. But it was mine. And mine to share with you. My son is perfect.. not sure how many lbs or how tall he is but he's 8.5 months old, crawling, standing up & walking with the help of furniture that is. He's babbling a lot! He's said "mama" & wants no one else but me! =D Only downside of birth & having to be placed on antibiotics while in labor the antibiotics prevented me from producing certain bacteria in the body. So to this day since I'm still breastfeeding I have to take acidophilus otherwise Ares gets a yeast infection.Sounds gross but it's not that bad. It's just a diaper rash caused by his urine when I don't take my probiotic regularly.
That's my birth story. Share yours if you haven't. I'd love to read about it!
Saturday, January 14, 2012
Undecided
Every day & night is an emotional battle. If only he knew how difficult it is to simply consider & weigh my options. It's easier said than done! The choices we make are what makes us who we are. "I know god will not give me anything I can't handle." If it wasn't meant to be it wouldn't have happened. Put yourself in my shoes instead of asking what I've decided to do. Then you'll understand what exactly it is you're asking from me. I have no one to turn to even my mother can't make that decision for me. I've asked for her advice & in the end it's still my choice to make. Right now I haven't got a clue what that choice is. Yes I'm running out of time. Maybe that's the answer, maybe I should let time decide.
Thursday, January 12, 2012
Merry Christmas & Happy 2012
So I haven't been on here for a couple weeks now. Hope everyone had a very Merry Christmas & a wonderful-safe New Year! Here's a few things that happened since I last blogged..
My son Ares first Christmas came & gone. He received so many toys from family & friends! It's ridiculous. We've still got a few laying around the room since we don't have a place to put it in. The closet is filled! We've already stored his outgrown toys/bouncers/clothes in storage.. which is also getting filled up. Also, since last blogging Ares celebrated my birthday for the first time! I'm officially 24, yay!? Right? Nah! I'm a lame-o.. I think it has something to do with how I was raised. I'm no party animal compared to my other half, that's for sure. I prefer the peace & quiet or stay at home vs going out & getting hammered. Not my style. What else.. Also celebrated Ares first New Year, which the three of us all slept through. No joke! We slept through the countdown. I hope that's not a bad thing starting off New Years that way. I mean.. we're fully rested so does that mean we won't be so tired for the rest of the year? lol.
hmm.. that's about it. Yea I know.. lame. Well, until next time.
My son Ares first Christmas came & gone. He received so many toys from family & friends! It's ridiculous. We've still got a few laying around the room since we don't have a place to put it in. The closet is filled! We've already stored his outgrown toys/bouncers/clothes in storage.. which is also getting filled up. Also, since last blogging Ares celebrated my birthday for the first time! I'm officially 24, yay!? Right? Nah! I'm a lame-o.. I think it has something to do with how I was raised. I'm no party animal compared to my other half, that's for sure. I prefer the peace & quiet or stay at home vs going out & getting hammered. Not my style. What else.. Also celebrated Ares first New Year, which the three of us all slept through. No joke! We slept through the countdown. I hope that's not a bad thing starting off New Years that way. I mean.. we're fully rested so does that mean we won't be so tired for the rest of the year? lol.
hmm.. that's about it. Yea I know.. lame. Well, until next time.
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