Wake up!

These days I'm trying to find ways to wake up my craftier side. It's been hibernating since High School. With the holidays fast approaching my hands are itching to liven things up around here.

My life needs more color. Tired of living in black & white. With occasional browns of course. Lol.

Time for a Change

Long overdue! Today, I'm going to attempt to spiffy up my blog! I need a change! And since I'm too chicken poo to chop off my hair.. well, updating the way my blog looks I guess is the next best thing.

That is all.. for now. =)

T.M.I

So.. Thanksgiving has come & gone. Nothing like family, friends, & good food. Butt! ;) I must have eaten something that was off cause I swear I've been in & out of the bathroom for the last 24 hours. I basically lost all the pounds I gained over the weekend which I'm thrilled about. But I hate having stomach aches! Especially ones that wake you up from sleep. I was able to eat a dinner last night which was all I had all day yesterday. Dinner being left overs from Thanksgiving .. Well I'm pretty darn sure I know what's causing it. Even if Mark & everyone else aren't having reactions to it.. I sure as hell am. =[

Apart from the need to go use the restroom several times this evening.. I was also suffering from mild insomnia. Not sure what's causing it. I've had little sleep in the last 48 hours. My body is crashing.

Ares had what I believe to be his first fever last night. He slept all night long. He might have been over stimulated during the weekend with seeing so many people all at once & being passed around like a damn hot potato which I wasn't very happy about. Spent the holidays with Mark's side of the family.. & one thing I HATE is how everyone just grabbed at Ares without asking. I was fuming at Mark just because he didn't care it was happening. The look on my sons face was enough for me to smack everyone upside the head. First off! You don't grab at babies! Second wash you damn hands! Third he's not a fcking doll that you can just pass around! It's safe to say I have every reason not to bring Ares over in the future. Call me over protective but I am his mother. And mothers do know what's best!

Black Friday Black Friday

Yesterday was Black Friday. Definitely glad it's over & done with. Didn't do any major shopping or even shop in the middle of the night. Nope. We went shopping around lunch time. Tried to stay away from the crowd. Here's a few things we bought yesterday curtesy of Black Friday sales..

Toys R Us:
1. Ball Pit

Target:
1. New Moon DVD
2. Twilight DVD (now I own two?!)

Yep that's all. Like I said. Didn't go crazy shopping. But I did pay a visit to Walmart & hoped to find that $10 crockpot. Too bad they sold out less than an hour into Black "Thursday" since they opened their doors at 9pm Thanksgiving night.

Wish I was able to get more things for Area. But as I got that ball pit I'm super happy.

So.. What deals did you get your hands on?

Nothing Like the Holidays

First off.. Happy Thanksgiving everyone! If you've got a kid & family coming over or if you're the one visiting family make sure to being sanitizers! And be ready to receive unwanted opinions & criticism.

All in all.. Just be thankful to have family around. Real friends who have stuck around through thick & thin. And all the food!

This year I'm thankful for my son. A gift from god. =] Everyday I thank the lord for Ares. Who knows where I'd be without my kid. I'm thankful to have such wonderful & caring family. We may bump heads from time to time but in the end arguments are what keeps our family strong. It proves that we can over come anything. I'm thankful for my boyfriend who's been with me web I was at my darkest & lowest of days. Also for sticking around & loving me for me & being my best friend. Last but not least I'm thankful for my health & life. I'm alive. That's all that matter.

What are you thankful for?

Forgive & Forget

Okay so I'm sure we've all had our run in with a couple if not more fake friends. People who we thought would be there for you but come to find out they were just looking out for their best interest. I've had several of those. I'm no saint. Sure, I've talked some crap behind people's backs only because bitches have nothing nice to say about me. Who gives a frock right? Right!

This blog is about forgiving all those who have wronged me in the past & letting them know I've forgotten about them. Actually, I had a talk with Mark (bf) a couple of weeks ago about this & I've never felt better. It's like this huge weight lifted off my shoulder!

I forgive all those who have wronged me in the past. And forgive those who will wrong me in the future. I hold no grudge. I hold on to no memory of your existence! That's right.. You simply don't exist. It's better that way. But if you like reading my blog go right ahead! It's public right? So I can't stop you from snooping around my 'perfect' life.

Pushed to the Limit

Last night our instructor took us to the weight room since only a few showed up to class. Day before Thanksgiving so not many students showed up to school. Anywho, I did my 'normal' routine. Normal back when I wasn't a mother.. Or pregnant. Let's just say it didn't work out so well. I ended up early fainting in class! I guess I just pushed myself way too hard too soon. I was very disappointed in myself. I know I shouldn't be so hard on myself since its not a work out for 'me' anymore. At least not yet. =,[

In 2010, before pregnancy, my body was at its best. It was the most fit I've ever gotten myself. It was hit the gym 5-7 times a week, run 3-5 miles every day.. I felt GREAT! After finding out I was pregnant of course I stopped working out. I just didn't feel like it was safe. I tried running which hurt like hell! So I stopped.. I tried the whole walking thing which wouldn't last very long cause I'd get cramps. Let's just say god blessed me with this pregnancy. ;) with a couple failed attempts in the past I was lucky to have gotten pregnant!

I guess after not working out intense or heavy in over a year I can't blame myself for at least trying. At least i got a few reps in before crashing!

Update... Movemeber!

Dang.. haven't blogged in a while. No time? Or just lazy! Ha! You'd think that with being a SAHM (stay at home  mom) I'd have all the time in the world. Wrong. My now 7 month old son keeps me on my toes! So I have to work around his schedule. The reason I'm able to blog right this moment is 'cause my son is taking his morning nap. Usually, I get some cleaning, laundry, cooking done.. instead I'm on here. With that said I've got to make this a quicky! Haven't had one of those in years. hehe.. -_- (blogspot needs to make smiley icons on here)

Update:

1. Today my son turns 7 months! Yay! Time flies. Definitely bittersweet. He has one tooth out & has 3 others on the way. All coming out at the same time or pretty close. He's a champ for handling all that pain.

2. This semester is coming to an end. Other than being a SAHM, I'm also a part time college student. Just because I'm a mother doesn't mean I can't get my education on! Besides, a couple of classes twice a week doesn't hurt.. much. Although, I do miss my little guy whenever I'm at school. =(

3. The beginning of November, or Movember (Mustache November) as some call it) was my boyfriend & I's 7 year anniversary. Official anniversary that is. Although, he & I have been together a little longer than that we just never thought to set a date. haha! Unfortunately, I didn't receive a gift from him... now wait a minute before you go off & start judging him let me finish... I didn't get a gift from him that day. However, I did receive one a few days ago. And I'm very happy about it. It's just an iPhone4, but I'm super duper happy about it! I don't need flowers or chocolate. I use my phone a lot for taking pictures, editing, some socializing... so it's a very thoughtful gift.

4. We've bought Ares a few (that's right a 'few') Christmas presents already. And that's just the beginning. Tomorrow is Thanksgiving which means Black Friday is right after that! Sales! I've got my four-eyes on a couple things. I won't be in line but I sure will be there for some sales. I'm on a budget. I feel like being on a budget for Christmas makes it all more special. Gifts are a lot harder to find for a certain price. And it takes a lot longer time figuring out what one would like.

5. Breaking Dawn came out a week ago & I watched it yesterday... TWICE! Saw the first showing in the morning with my son. Who by the way slept through more than half of it. Woke up with only 15 minutes left in the movie. He was such a good boy! Any who, what's a better way to end a day than the same way you started it.. with another viewing of Breaking Dawn! =)

Honestly, my life's pretty dull. So I'll end this blog here. Speaking of which.. this thing needs an update. Probably why I'm not into going on here so much 'cause my blog is so boooooring. Ahh.. until next time then.

Busy

Okay.. so with Christmas just around the corner I've yet to start buying presents for anyone. Well, except for my little guy. Started on his presents a couple months ago. =) But I'm so pressed for time now. I've got one thing going on here & another going on there. Also, with Ares always wanting constant attention it's hard to get anything done. =/ I'm halfway done with his grandmother's (dad's side) present.. I've yet to start on his gifts for my parents. UGH! Making things is so time consuming! Cheap, but time consuming!

Just to sum up this blog.. I've got several projects going on at the same time. I'm hoping to finish up one of Ares presents by the end of next week. Then I'll be starting on my god-daughters which I hope won't take too long, but I highly doubt it.

That's all for now.. I think it's about time I join my son & go to sleep.

He says, "Hello"

That feeling you get when your heart breaks all over again.

All it takes is that 'one' phone call to turn a person's day upside-down. Of course, I didn't get a call.. but I was speaking to someone who was with a certain person who wanted to say, "hello" indirectly.

That is all.

Torn

So I've been unemployed for over a year now. The last job I had only lasted a month & it was a year ago when I just up & quit. I was a couple months pregnant & work required me to life heavy objects. At the time I was a Merchandise Supervisor.. a real step down from the job I held for 4 years a Pharmacy Assistant. =( I miss working.. don't get me wrong being a full time stay at home mom is great but it's also go it's downs. For instance, finances are a little short simply because we're relying on my boyfriends income. I've been looking for a jobs.. it's just hard since I'm so afraid to leave Ares (my 6 month old son). Sure I leave him with his father for a couple of hours while I'm away at school, but I still worry! I need a job ASAP! & with the new season here I'm sure I can snag a part time seasonal job with ease. But.. I wouldn't have anyone to leave my little guy with since boyfriend refuses to watch him. Sad right?

Hoping he graduates this semester but I highly doubt that will happen now since he hasn't been going to class using Ares as a reason as to why he's having difficulties studying. Which pisses me off because the past 2 months my son & I have been driving down to Monterey & staying with them during the weekends in order for my boyfriend to have time to study. I'm mainly upset at myself because I put his education in front of mine. If I knew then what I know now, that he'd be taking this long to his shit straight I wouldn't have bothered waiting. Now, I'm stuck with no job & with little education. Grr! I need a bloody miracle! I've told friends & family before to always keep their heads up & look forward. It's so easy to say but so difficult to do. Only because I'm having the toughest time looking forward & keeping a smile on my face. I feel as if my life is stuck.. I take one step forward & immediately have to take two steps back. =( Good things come to those who wait right.. I've been waiting.

On a positive note.. my son is sitting on his own with support that is. He's able to sit up but occasionally does fall over. He's also technically "crawling"..  great for his development but now he's getting into everything!

Well gotta end this here.. my little guy is calling his mama... =)

Don't Hold Your Breath

So.. this Saturday will be Mark (boyfriend/baby daddy) & my 7 year anniversary. Yay... right. Lately.. this past year that is our relationship has been "blah". It's as if we weren't even in a relationship. I mean sure we're way passed that "honeymoon" stage of the relationship. But damn, seriously! Most of the time I feel like I'm speaking to a wall or myself. When I found out I was pregnant I was sure that Mark would change his ways, but he didn't. So when Ares was born I thought "this is it" but he didn't change either. In fact, I feel as if he's gotten worse with time? Shouldn't people change for the better over time? Like wine, right? Or maybe he's fermented!

Some time in the recent past we had a conversation about marriage. Yes, that's right. We had a baby out of wed-lock! Suck on that! So back to the topic about marriage.. we both agreed it was pointless. Hey! We've been together for such & such amount of time.. & now have a baby! What's the need? Right? Wrong! I WANT TO GET MARRIED! Someday! SOON!? At least be freaking engaged already! Grr! And NO he won't be proposing this Saturday I can assure that! Maybe romance & being settled down just isn't his thing. Well, the apple doesn't fall far from the tree. Yea, you can define that any way you want. Mmhhmmm...

But seriously! I want to get married. If not with him.. well you know. =[ I think every girl deserves to have her dream wedding & her dream dress! Of course, I don't exactly have any of those, but still. I want to get married & dress like a damn princess! Why is it so important to get married you ask? Well, for me.. it's just a higher level of commitment. You're bound together, hopefully forever, as husband & wife. 'Til death do we part. Is he not committed enough to want to marry the mother of his child?

I'm rambling & depressed.. a week & a half ago the only grandfather I know passed away. Yesterday marked the 2 year anniversary of my grandmother's death. This December will mark the 23rd year of my dad's death. =*((**

I'll wait for a miracle.. or should I not hold my breath? =/